J_E_G.....From the land of OZ

Saturday, November 29, 2003

 

Fell asleep pretty early last night, therefore I woke up at six this morning. Now I probably could have went back to sleep but I went ahead and got up. Why? Simple, sometimes I like to get up early like that while it's still dark out. It's so quiet and calm out, with the normal everyday commotion still asleep or neatly tucked away awaiting the rise of the sun for the energy needed to get going again. I like to take this time to sometimes just sit and think, or to do the things I want to do without a million sets of eyes gazing down upon me and casting judgment.

And then it happens, the dark black of the night sky begins to fade. Followed shortly thereafter by that tint of light blue hovering above the burnt orange which marks the spot where the sun is about to rise. Soon the streets will come alive with traffic, the sidewalks bustling with people rushing to get nowhere at all, even the serenade of the phone begins, each with their own style of ringing. And it is then that you realize your short lived freedom from the everyday chaos of the world has slipped away. Until next time.

Posted by J_E_G 8:49 AM   

Friday, November 28, 2003

 

So hope everyone's Thanksgiving day was a good one. Mine was ok, went to my brother's house sat around watching football, ate and then watched a movie and came home. Hell I even baked a cake to take over as my contribution to the meal. Yes, I said I baked, I can bake and cook too. I mean us poor single guys got to eat too, and contrary to popular belief it's not all about eating out or nuke it (microwavable) food. All in all even though it wasn't the most exciting day it also wasn't a bad one either and that in itself was a plus.

The rest of this post is something I been meaning to do for a while now. And that is give some credit and thanks where credit is due. And this being the Thanksgiving season it seem like a good time for this.

First off it was Raymi who introduced me to the world of blogging. And I owe her a huge thanks for the numerous hints and advice she gave me when I first started out knowing less then zero about HTML and other things about blogging. And it was Anti who gave me some valuable formatting advice when I was getting started. And that was that photos add to the site and that I should post them as often as I could. That worked out fine since I love to get out and take pic's whenever I can. Now that covers who and how I got started, so then what keeps me going? The answer to the question what keeps me going can be found in the links section running down the left side of my site. Yes most of the credit for what keeps me going goes to each and everyone of you I have linked. All the kind words and encouragement you give me helps me to keep going on. You have helped me to realize that yes I can write something good and worth reading. And that I am not as dumb as I was made to feel as I grew up. I think I have wrote about this a little before, but yes I did have a self-esteem problem even up to point of starting this blog. I'm getting over that now, though not completely yet, but I am better. And it's you people, my friends and readers I have on here who have been a big help in my getting over this. And for that I'd like to say to each and every one of you a very big THANK YOU!!!!

Now it's time to take advantage of this extra day off and get busy. I've got some household chores I've let slide lately I really should get done, and then run down and turn in my time card. That is if I want to get paid for this week.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 9:49 AM   

Thursday, November 27, 2003

 

After i got home from work my brother called wanting me to come over. So I grabbed a quick shower and headed over to his house, but I didn't stay to long. I told him I was tired, and i was. I must have been because when I got back home I sat down intending to surf the net a little and maybe place a post here. But the last thing I remember is sitting down and the next thing I know I'm waking up and it's two thirty in the morning. So now I'm sitting here somewhat awake in the wee hours of the morning. I don't know why I've been so tired lately, it's not like I'm over-worked at the job I have. Well, maybe I do know, it could be the fact that lately I go through the night sleeping in one hour intervals thanks to the carpel tunnel I have acting up. I go to bed and sleep for about an hour before I wake up because one or the other of my hands is hurting and feeling extremely numb. Don't get me wrong I'm not complaining, I haven't the right to complain about it. At least not until I'm ready to accept the only course of treatment for this condition, that being surgery on my hands to possibly correct this problem. And right now getting cut on is very low on my list of things to do. It's not that I'm scared to have it done, well ok maybe I am a little, besides without any health insurance I just couldn't afford to have it done even if I wanted to.

Ok, enough about that I better try and get some more sleep so I'm rested up for the family get together tomorrow. Sometimes these family gatherings go ok, and sometimes I feel as out of place at them as that fire extinguisher in the photo up above.

I will close out this post by saying.......

hope everybody has a wonderful THANKSGIVING.

That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 3:58 AM   

Tuesday, November 25, 2003

 

Just got home from work, a rather easy going day really, especially since it wasn't near as cold today as it was yesterday. One really good thing though is that even though it's only tuesday this week is two-thirds over already. Yes, a holiday shortened work week, the best kind. On the drive home tonight i realized I was feeling particularly lazy tonight and didn't feel like cooking supper, so since Taco Bell is right there on the way home I stopped in and let them cook supper.

I just can't believe Thanksgiving is on us already. The day set aside to give thanks. But you know with all that been going on such as family members in the hospital, other close friends going through really hard times and some things that haven't played out for me, I wondered did I really have anything to be thankful for. Sat here a while pondering this for a while when it hit me like a ton of bricks. Even if there is nothing else there is one very important thing I to be thankful for today and all other days prior. And that one thing is I woke up this morning. Simple as it may sound, there is no guarantee written or otherwise that we will wake up after going to sleep the night before. And having awakened I know I am alive and therefore have the opportunity to turn the day into whatever I may choose it to be, good or bad. And for that I am very thankful. Really when I look past the little bit of bad going on there really is a lot to be thankful for, including friend's (most of whom are in this cyber world), family and health just to mention a few.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 6:56 PM   

Monday, November 24, 2003

 

Ok, it's official, winter has found us finally. What was my first clue, let's see, maybe it was the fact i damned near froze solid when I first stepped out the door this morning to go to work. It was effin cold, that is if you call twelve degrees cold and I for one do.

A little update on the current family medical crises, things are looking better. The tests they have run are coming back negative and the doctors are leaning toward the fact that my mom was over medicated. They have taken her off most of the medicines her doctor, err i should probably say her EX- doctor put her on and changed the doses on the others and she's showing improvement. This just goes to prove my point I was making earlier that most doctors now a days would rather just throw a pill at you then try and find out what is really wrong. Pretty soon we won't be calling them doctor's offices anymore but rather the branch office of pharmaceutical companies. I mean really, the pharmaceutical push has been on for a few years now, as evidenced by all those ads on tv. You know the one's where they tell you to tell your doctor to give you this pill, it'll work wonders for you. Funny thing is they never tell you exactly what those pills in the tv ads are really for, just to tell your doctor to give it to you.

Here's a little story about the logic shown by doctor's when prescribing medicines. My mom has had high blood pressure for some time now and taking medication for it. (Remember this point it will come into play shortly.) She also has a neurological condition of which in the beginning just affected her balance, but then progressed to where her blood pressure would drop radically, stay that way for a couple of hours and then come back up again. When her neurologist found out about this he prescribed a pill to keep it from falling. So here's the good part, now she was taking one pill to keep her blood pressure down and another pill to keep her blood pressure up all at the same time. Now if anyone can make sense out of this move please contact me and clue me in because I sure as hell can't make any sense out of it. I think it's time for doctors to go back to doctoring instead of relying on pills to do their job for them.

Ok, enough of my ranting, I seem to be doing a lot of that lately. Anyway I do want to say thank you for all the well wishes expressed by many of you, I really do appreciate it and it does help.

Time to kick back and surf the blog world a little while before going to bed.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 9:00 PM   

Saturday, November 22, 2003

 

It's kind of a lazy hazy day today as I sit here waiting on the plumber. He's coming today because yesterday I spent most of the day at work and the rest of it out of town at the hospital.

No news on that front either, they are still running test to find out first what's wrong and then what's causing it. This whole episode has served to lower my opinion of doctors. I'm beginning to think that pretty soon we will almost need a medical degree just so we can determine if our doctors are screwing us over or not. Of course then we wouldn't need doctors, would we. My mom's doctor is a prime example of what I'm talking about. Mom had been feeling poorly for about two weeks and all her doctor would do was take a brief glance at her and toss another pill on the list for her to take, without really trying to find out what was wrong. Well it finally got to the enough is enough point, so we came up with a plan wherein my sister who lives in Topeka, would come down and take my mom back with her and then take her to the ER at one of the large hospitals where she lives. So what happened was they ran a couple of test and admitted her right away. So I'm wondering now, if they were that quick to admit her, what was that damned quack that calls herself my mom's doctor doing. Makes me also wonder if this b--ch didn't get her MD out of a Cracker Jacks box. So anyway it looks as though she'll be in the hospital through tuesday at least, under the scrutiny of kidney doctors, heart doctors and a few others. I don't care how long she has to stay in as long as they figure out once and for all what's wrong and fix it. And everyone wonders why I don't like to go to doctors. Hummm

Ok plumber just called, he'll be here shortly, got to run.
Later.

Posted by J_E_G 12:38 PM   

Friday, November 21, 2003

 

After a short but restful sleep I awoke with a better attitude. I have taken and tossed out the window these feelings of luck bad or good and the world crashing in on me. I know the only way to deal this is to take each situation and face it head on and deal with it. It's not going to be easy, but then again very few things are. Time to adopt a first things first principle and right now the first thing on my plate is the day of work ahead of me.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 5:28 AM   

Thursday, November 20, 2003

 

Sometimes things start happening so fast, coming from all directions that it throws me into a spin. So much so it seems to take forever to stop spinning and hours for the dust to settle. And this is one of those times. Things such as relative (mom) in the hospital, hospital sixty miles away, trips to hospital, basement flooded again because main sewer is backing up again.Need to be at the hospital, need to be fixing clogged sewer and flooded basement, need to be at work.....need to be able to split myself into 100 people at the same time.

I swear I haven't walked under any ladders, seen any black cats nor broken any mirrors, so I don't know what or why this shit is happening. So that leaves only one thing left to do.

Dear god, gods or whoever, whatever is up there, down there or hiding in the woodwork.
What the hell did i do to deserve this all of a sudden.
Whatever it was i didn't mean it.....at least I don't think I did.
Signed mass of confusion.

If you haven't figured out it's been a crazy last couple of days. You know the kind, yes, the kind of times that make you just want to effing scream.
That's it for now. More later, when I can gather together enough sane thoughts to make a decent post. Sorry about the melodramatic rantings, but I just had to get that off my chest before I exploded. I thought it might help, and you know something, it didn't. Right now I think nothing short of a miracle will help, but then I know better then that. Ok, I'm tired, run down and though I feel I have a million things left to do, fuck it I'm going to bed.
Later

Posted by J_E_G 11:12 PM   

Tuesday, November 18, 2003

 

I got home from work today with the idea of sitting back and relaxing a bit before doing anything. However before I could do that I happened past a mirror, and sneaking a peek I noticed a sugar cookie looking back. Before you start wondering, no I wasn't hallucinating, though I wonder if that wouldn't a bad way to be right now. Wait I'm straying here. The fact is I was seeing myself covered in white concrete dust is what I was referring to. So needless to say the early relaxation was out and the quick shower was in. And I feel lots better now too, although my body is still vibrating from the jack-hammer I ran today.

After posting those pic's yesterday Seduced and Sub/ver/sion both commented on how those pic's showed the approach of winter. And yes those pic's do give the illusion of the onset of winter, but not yesterday when I took those pictures. It was actually quite warm and believe it or not we were in a tornado watch last night. However fear not, they promise us a return to winter type weather by the weekend, and that will definitely suck after this week. But hey I guess that's the price you pay for living in a part of the country that has winter.

I did a little surfing around the sites I read daily before writing this and I saw where Sub/ver/sion was telling Ryan that he'd gladly trade all his life experiences to be 22 years old again. I got to thinking damn that sounds like a good idea. Only thing is I think I'd be screwed, because I probably don't have enough experiences to trade. Oh well that's life.

Besides I would only want to go back in age if I could stay in this time-frame. I wouldn't want to go back to the time it was when I was 22. Yes even with all it's quirkiness and downfalls I still prefer this era of time. Why 22 and not something like 18 again? Well if I could go back and stay in this time I would want to be able to party again, something i don't do that much of anymore. Another reason I wouldn't want to go back to 18 again is knowing my luck the hands of time would turn back too. And just as I turned 18 the Viet Nam conflict was just ending. If i was able to go back to that time again I just know some idiot politician would screw something up and the war, oops I mean conflict, would not end as it should. And therefore I would probably wind up over in that god forsaken hell hole as it was back then. Definitely not a pleasant thought.

Wow, I must more tired then i thought I was because I am rambling on about some somewhat nonsensical stuff. But I do have one more thing I want to say. As many of you may have noticed I have never said just how old I really am, right. Well the reason for that is i didn't want this to turn this into an age thing. Besides as True once said to me age is just a number. And it's true because I firmly believe you're only as old as you allow yourself to feel. So anyway here's your chance to figure it out, if you remember your history and do the math, I've pretty much told you how old I am.

Ok that's it for now. You know for not really knowing what to say when I sat down here I was sure long winded, and with no eye candy (pic's) sorry.
Later

Posted by J_E_G 7:01 PM   

Monday, November 17, 2003

 

Don't really have much to say tonight. Besides as Jamie would say sometimes it's best to let the pic's speak the words.
Later.

Posted by J_E_G 6:35 PM   

Sunday, November 16, 2003

 

Today was a beautiful day out, almost to nice for a mid-November's Autumn day. Plenty of sunshine and blue skies with the temperature around seventy degrees. In fact the weather guru's are telling us that this upcoming week is supposed to be nice, well except for the rain that is supposed to move through the area tomorrow. Now this kind of scares me. Why? Because when we get weather that's to good to be true, especially this time of year, I can't help but think mother nature is just setting us up for a big fall. But then that's just me going back to my sort of paranoid looking over my shoulder kind of thinking. When really I should, instead of worrying about it turning bad, get out and enjoy it for what it is, an extra blessing of nice weather. I know I'm this way at times (though I am getting better) and I think it's safe to say I'm probably not alone. And the problem is I/we are so busy being worried about things turning bad that I/we fail to see and miss out on the good that's right in front of our faces. I need to always remember to accept the good things for what they really are and not as a possible prelude to something bad.

With that said about the good weather we had here guess where I was. That's right, with it being Sunday it was time to watch some NFL football. So yeah, I had to watch my then undefeated Kansas City Chiefs play today. Notice I said my then undefeated Chiefs, that's because they lost today. I guess it was a weekend for streaks to be broken. Yep no more undefeated teams in the NFL. It was nice while it lasted, but losing today was no big deal. I mean after all the odds of completing an entire NFL season undefeated are not very good. Especially if you do like the Chiefs did and show up not ready to play. Oh well I feel confident this loss will not kill their season and they will be back.

Time to kick back and enjoy the rest of the evening, tomorrow starts a new week. Hope everyone's weekend was good and have a good Monday.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 7:15 PM   

Saturday, November 15, 2003

 

The Streak Ends!!!

Today was a typical saturday for me in that it was spent watching college football. And yes I even got to watch my Kansas State Wildcats on tv today, finally. With that I am happy to say there is plenty of jubilation and celebrating in Wildcat land tonight. With the win over the University of Nebraska today Kansas State breaks a 35 year losing streak to Nebraska at Nebraska. The win also sets my team up to win the Big-12 North title with a win next week.

Ok that's about all I can think of to post right now. Time to do a little studying and then well, whatever comes up.
Later.

Posted by J_E_G 7:41 PM   

Friday, November 14, 2003

 

So, my first full week on the job is complete and I'm happy to say I've survived so far. Although I'm not so sure I've gotten used to getting up at four thirty in the morning (damn that's early) yet. Spent the last couple of days as part of a lynch mob, wait, can it be a mob if there's only two guys hummm. No, we weren't running around hanging people from trees like in the days of old, actually we were hanging doors in the building I'm working in. And of course they can't be your run of the mill normal doors you have in your house, these suckers are like 3ft by 7ft, solid wood and weigh maybe 70-80 pounds. We've already hung 25 of these doors with like 110 more to go. Damn by the time we are done I'm liable to have arms that put Arnold to shame......or not.

One thing I have noticed being around this construction site are signs, all kinds of sign, some warning you, some simply reminding you of something. But I also noticed these so called warning signs take on a whole new meaning depending on how you read them. For instance read the sign without putting in the break they intended. I spotted a perfect example the other day and pointed it out to a coworker. The sign looked something like this:


Danger
No Smoking
Flammable Materials

I told my coworker look, isn't nice of them, they're telling us it's dangerous and we shouldn't smoke flammable material. Signs, you just got to love them even if they are a big waste of money, I mean who really pays any attention to them anyhow. I know, quit paying so much on signs that won't be read and give the workers a raise.....yeah like that would ever happen.

Oh yeah that pic up above is of the building I'm working in now. I snapped it real quickly through the windshield as I was leaving work today.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 7:54 PM   

 

T G I F

It's five thirty Friday morning what the hell am I doing up this early? Oh yeah, now I remember I've got to go to work. I was going to try and post last night after I worked on the on-line courses I'm trying to take. But the truth be known I didn't even get that accomplished. Turns out other things beyond my control took over for example the need for rest. Yep about an hour or so after sitting down at the computer last night I woke up to find myself slumped back in my chair. So I gave up and went to bed.

While getting ready for bed I was flipping through the channels last night I came across either one of the funniest but quite likely saddest things on last night. And that being the televised mega debate in the US senate over judges. Don't worry, I'm not going to go on and on about this, the only comment I have about this is I've seen more maturity displayed in a class of preschool kids then I saw in the senate last night. And these are the people running our country....tis sad indeed.

Ok time to head to work, more later today.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 5:43 AM   

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

 

I was sitting here unwinding a little after work when it dawned on me that it won't be long before we will be out looking to find one of these trees to put up. Yes hard as it is to believe, at least for me, that there is only maybe forty three days until christmas will be rolling around. And of course there's always the ultimate question of which to get a real tree or a fake one. I myself usually lean toward a real one, I mean there is nothing like the scent of pine through the holiday season. I want a real tree, but shit have you priced them lately? Hell you can almost buy a new car for what they want for a damned tree. I'm sorry but I'm not paying up-wards $100.00 for something that will be up for like three weeks and is then going to be tossed out.

So I guess it'll be the fake tree again this year. Now that tree I have pictured looks like a nice one, however I don't think the owners of the building would look to kindly on me helping myself to it. Still I wonder, nah, but maybe.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 8:39 PM   

Tuesday, November 11, 2003

 

It was a rather dreary start to the day with thick fog blanketing the area until almost noon. And as the fog started to lift I was seeing a lot of what would have been damned good pictures and guess where the cam was, uh huh at home. Oh well, I don't think it would have gone over to good with me saying time out guys I need to snap a few pic's. After the fog burned off it turned out to be a nice, no wait that's not right. It turned into a, dare i say it, ok a beautiful day. Lots of blue sky and sunshine, sixty five degrees and very little wind and for the eleventh of November around here that's damned good. Of course now that I've said that watch there be a blizzard tomorrow. Yikes knocking on wood.

It was a busy day, but it was not without some excitement as well. We got a shipment of cabinets in and i was tabbed to help unload the truck. I was told to ask the big boss, who is also the main contractor, where we should put these cabinets. Anyway as i neared the door with the first cabinet I heard what sounded like loud voices. The closer I got it was definitly shouting coming from just inside the door. I thought to myself, alright fight, fight!! So I push that first cabinet through the door when I see it, there stands my boss, the guy I'm supposed to ask where to store these cabinets, ripping the drywall sub-contractor a new ass for being behind and delaying the rest of the sub-contractors. So I thought I'd better hold off on asking him where to put these cabinets, I may be a little slow but I'm not all out stupid. After a few minutes of ass chewing this guy decides to argue back with my boss, he had balls I'll give him that much. But hey, it still wasn't getting me where I needed to be. Finally I hear my boss say that's how it is and I understand where you're coming from, as did the sub-contractor say similar and I thought good an end, now I can get back to work. No sooner did I think that when I heard it, that word, the sub-contractor ended his comment with BUT and the chewing was on again. To shorten this the sub-contractor did finally realize who was in charge and we were finally able to find out where to store the cabinets. And that's what the truck driver and I did for the next hour and a half or so, unload about forty five brand new cabinets, one at a time. So you see, this just goes to show a day at work doesn't always have to be dull.

Ok time to hit the shower. That's it for now. Later.

PS  One of these days I will get out and get some new pic's taken.

Posted by J_E_G 7:16 PM   

Monday, November 10, 2003

 

So, now that I'm back to working I've got to learn how to get things done in just a few hours that I used to have all day long to do. When I get home from work there's so many things facing me, some I need to get done and some I just want to get done. Makes me wish I could reach out and hit the slow motion button on life while I go on at normal speed. Today was a perfect example, after leaving work I needed to get cleaned up, go down and pick up my mom's computer from the repair shop, get the trash out, fix and eat supper. And then there were the things I want to do such as read the blogs I normally read, get started on those on-line courses I want to take and more. It isn't long before I'm feeling out of breath as though I've been running for miles even though I hadn't. Actually what I really need to do, I think, is to learn to realize it's ok not to get everything done no matter how badly I want them done. Gee that sounds so easy huh, we'll see we'll see.

Ok now it's time for me to start learning something else, and that is, now that I have to be at work at six thirty in the morning, I can't stay up as long as I want to and normally would. Thus I'm off to get myself to bed.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 9:50 PM   

Sunday, November 09, 2003

 

Today started out so nice and calm that I thought I'd just skate by taking it easy and watching the Kansas City Chief's maintain their undefeated record. Well that was the plan, but like a lot of plans they just don't go the way you want them to. So, as if I didn't have enough going on already, I ran into THIS this afternoon when I opened the basement door to do some laundry. Yep nothing like being greeted by a flooded basement. So it was time to call a plumber, and on a Sunday too, ouch!! I really didn't want to, but it was either that or give up using water in the house all together. You know what they say, when it rains it pours, I was just hoping it would be poured out by now. Oh well, that's life I guess, gots to take the good with the bad.

Then this afternoon I spent some time on-line getting registered so I may attempt to soak some additional knowledge into these tired brain cells of mine. HUH, what am I thinking, as if the world isn't already a dangerous enough place. Anyway this is all compliments of Manpower. You see, since I am now actively working on an assignment for them I become eligible for what they call their Global Learning Center. An on-line site where I can take courses ranging from computer to business, and here's the best part, it's FREE. So I figure, why not, one never knows where a little extra knowledge might get you.

Well I better get a move on, I still need to get things ready for work ( wow it feels nice to say that again, well at least for now) tomorrow.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 8:20 PM   

Saturday, November 08, 2003

 

Today was a typical Saturday with me settling in to listen to my K-State Wildcat's notch up another victory. Ok, so there was one little exception, I was resting up some sore muscles that I had reawakened these last couple of days.

This evening however boredom crept in and settled over me. No matter what I tried to do from reading to watching tv, I just couldn't shake it. Soon I found myself just sitting here and before i knew it I was off on a two hour trip, lost in a world of thought. Thinking mostly of all that has happened to me in just this past year. All the self-discovery, changes, and lessons learned of this past year came back to me with a bang, with all it's ups and it's down reminiscent of an old fashioned roller-coaster ride. Were the decisions made the right ones, I can't really say for now, history will reveal that somewhere down the line in the future. If there is a future, for near as I can tell we have not now nor have we ever been promised a future. The only certainty is what we have before us in the here and now, and even that may be an illusion. And though I hold no regrets for anything I have done this past year, I still have one nagging thought deep within the recesses of myself and that is.....in this game of life, why is it I sometimes seem to end up standing on the wrong sidelines at the right time. Food for thought, even if it is only a morsel.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 11:15 PM   

Friday, November 07, 2003

 

Blackhawk Down and This Time It Ain't No Movie

Yes the war that's not really supposed to be a war(anymore that is) has struck again. Actually I guess it's been happening on a daily basis, with the latest incident being the downing of a Blackhawk helicopter today. I bring this up again because of the amazement I hear in the voices of the people I talk to around here, when they say things like. How? I thought the major hostilities were supposed to be over with. Well here's a flash, as long as we are over there, there will be hostilities, despite what our fearful, oh I'm sorry i meant, fearless leader tells us. It's time for us to realize there are still people over there that don't like us, don't want our help and don't want us to be there. Do I think we should just cut our losses and run? NO, we are in to deep to do that. Do I have answers and solutions to keep our guys from being killed almost daily? Again No, if I did, I would be typing this from some big office in Washington DC. I do however, believe something needs to be done to bolster the security of our troops that are there.

Ooops I almost got off on a little war rant there, and I don't mean for this blog to be about the war. Sometimes it just gets me going when I hear people asking why there's still people getting killed over there or acting all surprised again that another helicopter got shot down.

Ok I'm through ranting for now. On a much brighter note, work went good today and it will continue on into next week and even longer with a little luck. If you want to see the mess I was dealing with in each room I went in to clean then just click here.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 11:13 PM   

 

It's been so long since I've had to be up this early in the morning I almost forgot what it's like. Not only that it's been a while since I had to force myself to go to bed at a decent hour. That is if you can call 12:30am a decent hour, however it is earlier then the 2:00am hour that I had gotten used to climbing into bed. I know, I know, welcome back to the world of the working folk, right. I'm not looking forward to eight or nine hours of pushing a broom, but hey, a guys got to do what a guys got to do.

I am going to take my cam with me today and try and get some new pic's. Although it might be a little tricky, since this job is on the army base right next to town here, and they tend to get a tad bit paranoid when they see someone snapping pictures there. We'll see.

Speaking of my pictures you might see mine screwing up a bit. Bear with me, I have some hosting issues I have to clear up.

Ok, it's time to throw my lunch together and get ready to head out the door, more later.

Posted by J_E_G 6:42 AM   

Thursday, November 06, 2003

 

Ok I'm going to try this again, I was just getting started on a post this morning when the phone rang and the conversation went something like this. Hello.....is J there ( ok so who am I kidding, if people haven't figured out that the J stands for John yet somethings wrong), this is John, good this is miss _ _ _ from manpower we were wondering if you could be available for work today. Well let's see I think to myself, I'm almost down to zero with zero coming in....ahhh yeah I think I could be available today. So how soon do you want me to go in I asked, like an hour ago, wow. Seems what it is, they had a no show on this job today and they were looking to replace him. No problem I can do that, but seeing how it was already close to eleven I told them don't look for me before noon, to which they replied no problem. So I quickly dug out the work cloths, work boots, tossed a sandwich in a bag and headed out the door to work, oh and guess what the sun was shining too yay.

Now this may only be a two day gig, but it's a start. And it couldn't come at a better time, because starting today certain bills will be coming due, yeah the ones on the can't pay till I get more money coming in list. You know like, ohhh the cell phone, but that's ok nobody ever called me anyhow, oh yeah the credit card payments are on this list too, but I will catch those back up. Ok I know what you're thinking , here's where he lists shit says he's broke and asks for help. Well you are wrong, well sorta wrong, I am going to ask for something, just not what you think. Of course I thought of sticking a Pay Pal donation button up and asking if you could spare a dime it would be nice and helpful. But I'm not going to do that, I mean I have the main bills covered. There's a roof over my head, heat coming out of the vents, food in my stomach and the internet coming across the cable. So I am not going to ask someone no matter how kind they are to help pay my credit card bills or buy me cigarettes( which by the way i'm still hanging in there). So instead what I want you to do, ok here it comes, if you haven't already, head over here to Anti's blog , and hit his Pay Pal button. He's is a good and caring person (damned talented writer too) who has hit a bit of a snag and would, I know, appreciate any help you might could give. Thanks. He doesn't know I'm posting this and I hope he doesn't get mad at me, but I'm just wanting to help a friend, and this is the only thing right now I'm in a position to do.

P.S. Oh yeah, I almost forgot, just what is it I'm doing on this job. Well it has to do with construction clean up, give you any ideas. Ok, I guess the best way I could put it is I'm an industrial janitor. Yeah I sweep the floors, not to exciting, but hey, it pays and right now that's all that counts.
Ok that's it for now. Later

Posted by J_E_G 7:31 PM   

Wednesday, November 05, 2003

 

WANTED: THE SUN !!

To chase away these cloudy depressing days.

Last seen shining in these parts Thursday Oct. 30, 2003.


Yeah it's been a long while since the sun has shone around here. Who knows maybe it just up and moved South and West for the winter, not a bad idea really, if I could afford it that's exactly what I'd be doing right about now.

You never know maybe this lack of sunshine played a small part in putting me in the mood i was in yesterday. But that was yesterday and though a lot hasn't changed just yet, a good night's rest, some encouraging   words, a little self attitude adjusting and I'm doing a lot better.
Although I still want some sunshine....damn-it.
Later

Posted by J_E_G 3:14 PM   

 

**Warning anyone expecting to see one of my normal this is what I did today posts, then stop, turn and run while you can. If not proceed at your own risk or mine or whatever,hell I don't know.



Maybe there's a master plan and I forgot to read it,I don't know. Or maybe there just really wasn't a spot in this universe for me and I've just been been fooling myself or being fooled by situations all along. Maybe I just don't belong after all and maybe never will. There are times I feel I fit in about as good as the glove fit OJ's fucking hand. And maybe, maybe I really am as stupid as I was made to feel by some while I was growing up, though I don't want to believe it is so. All I know is I look ahead, I look behind, to the left and to the right and the scenery is still the same. So I've gone nowhere at all or I've come full circle, either way have I really moved at all.

Or maybe, just maybe, these feeling have been brought about by the massive amounts of nicotine oozing from my body. All I know is one minute I feel as though I could go out and walk ten miles no matter how cold it is. And the next moment I feel as though I'm in my chair pulling twenty G's sucked down so by gravity that I couldn't stand let alone leave the house.

If you couldn't tell today's not been a very good one in the let's quit smoking department or maybe it's just been tonight. But then maybe it's all the things I've sucked in like a giant vacuum over the years finally screaming for release, it's hard to say. I do feel better now, though I haven't really said anything, well anything of consequence anyhow. In fact this is the first I've ever let my feelings of the moment out to anyone, and read quick cause I don't know if I'll let this post stay up or take it down.

Just in case anyone starts to worry that i sound to down, please don't, tomorrows another day all it's own, I know that. And it's not in my nature to stay down that long. With that said I believe it's off to bed for me.
Later

Posted by J_E_G 12:06 AM   

Monday, November 03, 2003

 

So today was the first day in a loooong time I had to be up at a certain time, so do you think I made it up on time. Of course I did, in fact my eyes popped open twenty minutes before the alarm was set to go off. Waking up early has never been a problem for me, wanting to crawl out of bed might be a whole other story though. Anyway i got up, cleaned up, had some coffee, (wanted a cigarette but nope didn't have one), then headed off to my appointment.

Once I got to their office I had to read all this info concerning Manpowers policies and all this safety crap. Not that I don't think safety is important, it is. But I've learned that all these companies preach safety, but when it comes to getting the job done, it's get it done now even if you have to side step a few safety rules along the way. After that it was time to watch some videos which was actually everything I had just read only on video. Humm I guess they want to make sure you really get it. Then it was time for the actual question and answer interview thingy. You know the what do you like/want to do, or is there anywhere you won't work? Anyhow towards the end of this part I got the feeling this person was taking a liking to me. In fact after I was through I half expected to look out the window and see the parking lot covered in snow. No not really, not that I wouldn't do that, I'm just not that good at snowing someone. All kidding aside I do think they liked me, in fact she told me she looking to put me on at the Foot Locker distribution center. Hey, I think I can handle that, scanning shoes and packing them in boxes for shipment. She at one point asked if I wanted to work at the plant that makes smoked sausages. I told her I didn't think I wanted that, I've heard it's like working in a giant refrigerator. Besides I like to eat smoked sausages every now and then and I just don't think I'm ready to see how they are made. To sum it up they told me all that was left to do was for them to check with my previous employer, put me on the list and call me as soon as they had an opening. I hope that opening comes soon this months bills due dates are rapidly approaching. Oh well it'll all work out.

This afternoon I pulled up an on-line classic rock radio station and have just been surfing and reading. Time now to go out and see what I have to fix for supper.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 4:01 PM   

Sunday, November 02, 2003

 

Today wasn't much different then yesterday, weather wise that is. Other then that it was what Sunday can sometimes be, boring as hell. Sure there was football to be watched but the games they choose to broadcast were not really ones I wanted to watch. So what did I do today then, well nothing really. Actually I popped in my Black Sabbath greatest hits CD and just kicked back.

Tonight has been all about a trip down memory lane as I watch the CBS 75th anniversary show. Oh the memories it brought back, the shows I remember watching as well as the memories of the places, people, and events that came flooding back as I watched. The fun times and laughs brought about by such shows as I Love Lucy ( and yes I've been around that long), Happy Days, Mash, right up to Everybody Loves Raymond. Also seeing this country launch itself into space would also be among those good times. I can still remember sitting and watching in shear amazement when it was announced "The Eagle Has Landed" as man first stepped foot on the moon. As is usually the case along with good memories so to will the not so good memories come back to pay a visit. Thanks to TV I was witness to the assassinations of John and Bobby Kennedy as well as Martin Luther King, also the race riots, the Viet Nam war and it's protesters, I saw a space shuttle blow up shortly after liftoff and one disintegrate on re-entry, and one of, if not the worst tragedies ever to be seen in this country, that being the crashing down of the World Trade Center and the plane crashing into the Pentagon. So yeah right now I'm sitting here with memories good and bad, historic and fantasy passing before me like the horses on a carousel.

But now it's time for me to head to bed so I can be up on time. I've got this interview/orientation thing at man power tomorrow, so with a little luck I could have a job within the next few days.




And no it didn't snow today although it looked like it could most of the day. I just decided to post this as a reminder of what may be upon us before we know it.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 10:51 PM   

Saturday, November 01, 2003

 

Ok so how was everyones Halloween? For me it was just a so so night, no parties, no costumes, and no putting up with trick or treaters. Well unless you count the two I damned near hit with the car last night. Yep, two of them dressed in all black costumes trying to cross a dark street right in front of me. Fortunately I was going slow enough I saw them in plenty of time. But I want to know what's up with some of these parents letting kids go out like that. Ok, I got a little off track there. The reason I didn't have to put up with trick or treaters is i wasn't home. Went over to my brothers house where he got to put up with them.

Today it is cold and cloudy out which makes for good conditions to stay in and watch football on tv. Haha like I really need an excuse like that to watch football. Speaking of which it's about time for my K-State Wildcats to kickoff, of course I won't be watching them on tv, damned tv people anyhow.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 12:59 PM   

 

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